So, i've been on the road for two weeks now. In that time I've been thinking about a lot of things as well as got lectured/yelled at by a loved one.
See, I tend to come up with grand ideas and then make excuses to not do them once I get the chance. This is something I've done for a long time. But there's a reason for it.
I tend to let my self doubt talk me out of things. I've allowed it to tell me I'm not good enough to make these ideas become reality. That I'll fail before I've even begun. And this crippling doubt has ruined some potentially great opportunities for me over the years. And I'm sick of it.
While I realize that nothing great is ever handed to you. That you need to work hard to achieve anything. But I've also seen examples in my work where I've worked hard to get an image and got an ok picture. And then just took a random picture of something and had it turn out wonderfully...so it's a rather fickle thing this photography...But, if I want this to be a business that pays the bills rather than something i do to pass time on weekends...I need to work hard and be a lot less ADD about things.
This is why I WILL start advertising for Studio 42 Photography. There are a few images I'd like to create to aid in said advertising (and I need to come up with a pricing plan) but by the end of the year I want my studio to at least be paying for itself. (if not more than that)
I turn 36 later this month...this is the year of the dragon...my year...and I want to make sure it ends MINE....but I need to stop being afraid and take action so this happens...otherwise it'll just be another year wasted...
Listening to: Some random trance music
Reading: Dune Messiah by Frank Herbert
Watching: People wander about with swords.
Playing: Paladog on armorgames
Eating: More than i should
Drinking: lots of water